人間の(にんげんの)本音(ほんね)と建前(たてまえ)(嘘)が恐ろしく(おそろしく)てたまらず、機嫌を(きげんを)取る(とる)ため

'No Longer Human' (Ningen Shikkaku) is an autobiographical masterpiece written by Osamu Dazai during the Meiji/Showa period, portraying the suffering human mind to the extreme. It begins with the shocking opening line, 'I have spent a life of much shame.' The protagonist, Oba Yozo, was terrified of human real feelings and social pretenses (lies) since childhood, and lived performing as a 'clown' (clown) to please those around him.