「ここで生まれた(うまれた)娘(むすめ)が生きて(いきて)いれば遊んで(あそんで)いただろうに」と涙し(なみだし)、「日記を(にっきを)破り捨てよう(やぶりすてよう)」と結んだ(むすんだ)

Finally, taking about fifty days, the ship arrived at his home in Kyoto. However, during his absence, the house had completely gone to ruin, and neighbors' kindness had thinned. Looking at the wild garden, the author wept heavily once more, thinking, 'If the daughter who was born in this house and went to Tosa with us were only alive, she would be playing energetically here now.' With the poignant yet beautiful passage, 'In my overwhelming grief, I shall tear up this diary at once,' the diary draws to a close.