姉や母親の死、宮仕えでの孤独、そして結婚した夫の突然の病死などの深い悲哀と喪失

However, as she grew older, the harsh realities of life stood in her way one after another: the deaths of her beloved sister and mother, the loneliness and awkwardness of her late service at court, and the sudden illness and death of the husband she finally married. Amidst these deep sorrows and losses in real life, she began to realize the 'delusion' of her past pursuit of only the fictitious beauty of stories.