わざと「道化(おどけ者)」を演じて周囲を楽しませる行動

'Mine has been a life of much shame.' The protagonist, Yozo Oba, had been unable to understand human activities or true feelings since childhood, trembling with terror at human beings. To escape this fear, he made desperate efforts to play the 'clown' (buffoon), struggling to maintain a connection with his surroundings.